I’m in the process of redesigning this website.
I’ve been quiet on posting the sermons lately, partly for that reason, and partly from adjusting to the deaths of friends and family over the last month.
Let no-one think I make claims to infallibility (though I do notice that even my mistakes turn out to be the right things for the moment). I’ve lost a lot of gumption over the last few weeks, and I’ve had to dive very deep into a great deal of the darkness I carry around with me. That’s the only way to get to the other side of it, after all.
I haven’t always done it well, or with calm and serenity. I reached the anger stage of mourning last week and I had a serious Hulk-out.
That’s why I call myself a “Zen Lunatic” and not a “Zen master.” Zen masters can be angry without acting on it. Still, I’ve got enough awareness to know what’s happening, even if I indulge it instead of mastering it.
Awareness is the key to pretty much everything in life.
Right now, I’m aware that the weight of several other people is gone from my life now. My ride is a little unbalanced and I need to adjust.
I need to change.
Evolution is the right of all living things, you know. You and me, we just have the ability to make it happen, and shape it to our needs.
That’s magic, baby. Don’t let anyone tell you it ain’t real. Belief that you can evolve is the one indispensable element to solving any problem you might be encountering. Believe in the power. I’m living proof that it’s there and can be used.
Take this website. (Again.)
I intended this latest incarnation (I’ve had this domain for nigh on twenty years now) as a spot where I could share what I’ve learned over a lifetime of soul-searching and study, a place where I could tell people that it’s okay to look at life a little sideways, that spiritual and philosophical development can have a practical application and expression. Someplace where I could maybe give people something to think about and if even only one person had some personal insight that improved their life, illuminated one of their problems or hell, even just made them smile, I would have left this world just that much better than when I found it.
But my world is a little different, now. As I must adjust, so must my online presence.
Now, a Biker doesn’t hide who they are. So the mysticism and guru-tastic philosophic rambles stay in place.
But gas, beer, and food–in that order–do cost money, and this here is the best place I’ve got to make any these days. So I’m returning a bit to my and this website’s roots, and making a go at commercializing my art.
It’s kind of a relief. Like I said in my last sermon, I am more than one thing. Trying to reduce myself to just one aspect of my self was a little draining.
You’ll notice a few cosmetic changes. A slight change in tone as I add my professional aspects to the site. Hey, polishing the chrome doesn’t take anything away from it.
I hope that nobody thinks less of me for going all corporate and stuff, but if they do, well, that’s just too damned bad because it’s got to be done.
And feeling that sentence is the key to personal evolution.
That, is the Truth.
And the Truth rides a motorcycle.